Goals

Kelli and I talked for 7 hours today.

She told me that she only wishes that she were as good a writer as I was, and while I don't actually think I'm all that awesome, it did get me thinking about my writing. I really enjoy writing, and used to do it everyday. I use to take time and make myself write, about anything. And usually the things that I wrote when I was stretching to find something, anything to write about were some of my best writings.

I miss writing like that.

I used to blog everyday. The earlies entries on this blog were not always about information that was needed to catch people up on what is going on in Amy's world, but were instead bright fresh meanderings in which you thought with me.

I miss writing like that too.

I used to sit and watch, write about those things that I saw or felt or thought. Writing that was an active process, and that the world around me was involved in as well as I was.

And guess what... I miss that as well.

The rest of my summer is supposed to be about getting myself ready for school. But when it comes down to it, there are some goals that I have set for myself, personally. I need to get back to finding the core of me. Unsurprisingly, I am not all that great at balance. I give 'it' my all, whatever 'it' is, and now is the time to balance that with getting back to those things that I find important, that I want to make time for, and that make me a more reflective and complex person. My writing is one of those things.

I know there are not many of you who read my words here, and I'm ok with that. But I feel as though I have things to share with you. Thoughts and processes that you could see if only I were to get back to what I know I can do: what I'm good at. If I would only open up and write. The last 2 years has been a lot about closing things down, changing to fit into a world that I don't easily understand. I have had to reinvint myself simply to be understood and fit in. But I miss the writing.

So I am setting myself a goal. For the next 30 days, I am going to write, everyday, about stuff. Things I see and hear, notice and feel. I am not going to write about things that are going on, those posts will ahve to be seperate and in addition. The next 30 days I am going to get back to the writing.

Wish me luck!